November 29, 2012
Lifted Up (Great Day 4)
I suppose to some, it seems cliché to blog about them as my inspiration. But there are not 2 people on this Earth who have inspired me more than my husband Micheal and my daughter Joycelen.
Micheal inspires me with his quiet strength. When I see an injustice or wrong in the world, I rail, shake my fits, demand that things change. Micheal simply steps in and works to fix the situation. He does not seek to blame anyone, he does not shout, he just does what he is called to do. Micheal also inspires me with his unconditional love. As my husband, Micheal is called to love me as Christ loves the church – meaning he is willing to die for me. And while I pray that he is never placed in such a situation, I know that in a moment he would offer his life for mine. In fact he does each day, when he chooses to put his own plans aside to do something I am “nagging” him about. When I get mad and snap, he just respond with a smile, shrugging off my angry words. I marvel at how he can see the darkest/ugliest parts of me, and still look at me with wonder in his eyes as if I am the greatest gift he has ever seen. It is this love that inspires me to love those around me who I may not always like.
Joycelen is my unexpected blessing. Micheal and I had only been married 3 months when we learned we were pregnant. As a newlyweds, pregnancy was not in our plans. I remember be shocked, saddened, but mostly scared. I was only a year or two removed from a 5 year battle with bulimia. I feared that pregnancy would stir up all of my old demons. But the opposite happened. As Joycelen grew inside of me, I marveled at what my body could do. Before she was ever born, my daughter taught me how to love and be at peace with myself. Then in March 2010, she came into this world, 7 lbs and 11 ounces of wide-eyed wonder. From an early age, she wanted to see the world around, to question, to learn. She inspires me to look at the world around – me to see what I can do for others. Joycelen is a happy child. In fact her cries were so rare during infancy, that the tiniest sniffle from her would bring any adult within ear shot running – because we knew there was a problem. Joycelen lives her life with joy. And she is teaching her mother how to do the same.
A loving husband and a beautiful daughter…
Two ordinary people…..
Who are my source of extraordinary inspiration.
November 27, 2012
Greater: Day #2
1. Tell about a time when you found yourself wishing you were accomplishing more in life that really matters. What caused your discontent?
In all honesty, I am in that moment now. I have a loving husband, a beautiful daughter, a job I enjoy, a home, a car, all of needs and most wants are satisfied. But I find myself wondering if I’m really making a difference if my life is having an impact on eternity. I remember times early on in my faith when I felt on “fire” for God. Now, I find myself going thru the motions – Sunday school, church, prayer meeting on Wednesday, repeat – and I want MORE.
2. As you think back over your Christian life, what has been your most grandiose (and unachievable) pipe dream about doing something great for God?
The summer after my 9th grade year, I attended M-Fuge where I dreamed of becoming a missionary. Um, so yeah, that didn’t happen…..
3. Steven says, “We wake up one day to find ourselves stuck in miserable mediocrity.” Is that true for your life right now? If so, describe how you are stuck in mediocrity?
I’m there. I attend church – but more because I feel guilty than because I desire to be there. I teach Sunday School – but put little effort into the lessons. And I am not sure that the life the other 6 days of the week really reflects Christ to those around me.
4. What’s your reaction to this book’s concept of greater (as opposed to grandiose greatness and mediocre great enough)? How does it affect your perspective on your future?
I finally feel excited about the future. I know longer feel as though I have to live a life that is either stuck in neutral or fails to live up to the “ideals” in my head. I don’t have to see myself as striving to be a “Super Christian” ala Billy Graham, Steven Furtick, etc. I can just be me – a wife, mother, career woman who is so sold out to God – that He uses me to do GREATER things in my little rural town in South Georgia.
5. If you already have an idea of what greater thing God might have in mind for you, what is it?
I have NO idea what the Lord has in store for me. But I am so eager to find out!
I am participating in an Online Bible Study via Melissa Taylor. We are using the book Greater by Steven Furtick. I will be sharing my thoughts/feelings here on the blog. I hope that you are blessed my this.
November 26, 2012
Greater: Day 1
For me, the study is an answer to my prayers. I have felt - for months if not years - that my Christian walk was stuck in neutral. I was going thru the motions, the routines, the rituals - wanting to do more but having no idea how to get there. I am eager to see what truths the Heavenly Father has in store for me with this study. I decided that I would document the lessons here on the blog. My hope (and prayer) is that it helps someone else who is struggling in their faith.
Here is what I learned today:
- If I hope to have any impact on the Kingdom of God, I first must have FAITH in Christ.
- My FAITH in Christ will lead me to do the works that Christ did - sharing the gospel, loving others, serving others.
- I can NOT be greater than Christ - after all I am flesh not God. But I can be GREATER if I allow the Holy Spirit to empower me. By living out my FAITH and seeking Christ's guidance, my life can make a difference.
November 24, 2012
Life with the Lees: Another Milestone
Yesterday afternoon, M and I built a toddler bed for Joycie. For months, we had stated that it was time to move her out of her crib – after all she will be 3 in a mere 4 months. But all attempts to find a bed that a) fit our budget, b) fit Joycie’s room, and c) fit both of our styles had failed. Then one evening while scrolling thru Pinterest, I found a link to a homemade toddler bed. I clicked it.
The finished project was a cute toddler bed. I showed the link to M who agreed we could do the same project for Joycie’s room. So with a few pieces of donated lumber, $30 in fabric and batting, and an hour’s worth of work, this beauty now rests where a baby’s crib once did.
And in it sleeps a “big girl” who doesn’t understand yet – but will someday realize that no matter how big she grows, how old she is, or what bed she sleeps in – she’ll always be my baby.
November 02, 2012
I don't think Amazon sells those....
Joycie: "Mama, 'Melia has a new baby budder."
Me: "A baby brother, that must be so nice."
Joycie: "Uh-huh. 'Melia says she LOVES her baby budder. I want a baby budder, Mama."
Me (quite suprised as Joycie usually tells her grandparents that she does NOT want siblings): "Oh really, and when would you like this baby budder?"
Joycie: "I need him at our house by Thursday!"
Oh dear, I hate to tell the sweet thing that it does not work quite like that. :-)
October 23, 2012
Go Tell It On the Mountain....
I am referring to sharing the gospel with a person who has never heard of or does not believe in Jesus Christ. I am participating in the She Reads Truth study of Philippians. Today's reading comes from Chapter 1 verses 12-30. Paul writes to the church telling him that there are those who preach for selfish reasons and those who sincerely desire to share their faith. Paul does not care of the motives - sure he is not happy about selfish ones - but he sees the bigger picture that the message of God's grace reaches as many lives as possible.
The author of today's reading challenged me to think about what is keeping me from sharing the gospel. Paul was so in love with Jesus that he shared his faith even from behind prison walls. So why don't I share my faith?
The answer is two-fold. First, I am not walking with the Lord as I should. If I am not in fellowship with my Savior, how can I share Him with others. Secondly, I am scared. Scared of being called names, judged, or rejected. But I am CALLED to share the gospel, so I must but fears aside and boldly go forward with the truth.
August 30, 2012
Busy Summer Winding Down
We have had a busy summer as a family. It began with blueberry season, where we spent most afternoons, evenings, and Saturdays picking blueberries. While the work was hot and dirty, the rewards were worth it - as our farm reached a new production high! Once blueberry season was over, we threw ourselves into preparing for our church's Vacation Bible School.
Once VBS was over, we spent a few weekends at the beach. Joycie is absolutely in love with the water! She spent nearly of her time wanting to play in the waves, which meant her Daddy and I spent all of our time keeping her safe. She is quite fearless!
Now we are preparing for the start of college football season! As season ticket holders, we will spend many weekends in Atlanta cheering on our beloved Georgia Tech Yellow Jackets. Joycie is already practicing her “Go Tech!” cheer. But before that happens, we have a few more fun trips planned – including a day at the lake!
How was your summer? What fun things do you have planned for the last days of summer?