April 29, 2010

Bittersweet

Last night, M was preparing Joycelen for bed. He asked me to select a sleeper for her to wear. I immediately chose one of my favorites – a pink sleeper with the words “Mommy’s Snuggle Bunny” on the front, and adorable bunny faces on the feet. This cherished sleeper is almost too small.

This morning as I changed Joycelen’s diaper … I used the last newborn sized one. It was an extremely snug fit. It is now time to move up to size 1 diapers.

Both of these incidents left me with watery eyes – both cementing the reality that the tiny infant I brought home a mere two months ago is truly growing. While I am eager to see the changes that the coming months will bring, part of me wants to hit the pause button, to keep her tiny for just a little bit longer. I have a feeling that this will not be the last time that I feel this type of internal conflict. Is motherhood always so bittersweet?

4 comments:

NavyBride said...

I think that the short answer to your question is, "Yes."

But!

When Mia was a month old, we had friends visit who have a child 8 months older, and one of the things they said was, "Every month, we think, 'This is our favorite month so far!' And then the next month happens." I completely agree with that statement. 3 months was a big turning point, as she began to really interact with us. Since then it's been one crazy accomplishment after another. Most recently, she's started giving kisses freely, without being asked. And she's gone from walking to running. And she's starting to talk, using words OTHER PEOPLE UNDERSTAND!!

All this to say that I hear ya on how fast they grow, but oh my goodness, the growing is so much fun!

Kathie Brinkman said...

Yep.

Amy Jo said...

I just sent you an email.....

Mama Michie (aka Michaela) said...

Yes, it is always that bittersweet.

I cried when I put away Noah's newborn sized clothes... I imagine I will do the same with Abby. While it's great to see them grow and change and actually start to interact with you, there will always be a part that wants them to stay the way they are right at that moment.