July 31, 2009

Dear Baby

This week has been a difficult one for your Mama. On Wednesday, she learned that a fellow co-worker who was also expecting a peanut of her own, lost the baby. The news made your Mama very sad and extremely scared. You do not know it - but since Mama is only in her first trimester her risk of miscarriage is very high.  And your Mama, who you by now know is a worrier, is terrfied that she is going to lose you.
But your Mama's co-worker showed tremendous courage and heart in the face of her loss.  She explained to Mama that she had found peace regarding the situation, and that she knew her Peanut was waiting for her in heaven. She takes comfort in knowing that -- and her peace flowed over to your Mama.
We've got a long road ahead of us, Peanut.  After all, we are only 2 months into this journey.  There are going to be lots of bumps (pun intended), twists, and turns along the way. But at the end, you and I will finally get to see each other face to face - and that's going to make it all worth it.


Kathie Brinkman said...

Kimberly, please know that your heavenly Father holds your baby and breathes life into your baby. He ALONE determines the number of days of your baby's life.

Psalm 139:16 "your eyes saw my unformed body.All the days ordained for me were written in your book before one of them came to be."

We do our part in eating healthy and getting rest, but GOD ALONE has the final say in our lives. And He is a good God and he has good plans for you and your husband and child. God makes no mistakes when it comes to forming babies, the timing of pregnancies, and when these babies make their appearance on earth (or return to heaven). Your baby is in the best possible care right now. So be at peace Mama. I had a miscarriage between Katie and Caleb--at just six weeks. Then I was deemed medically unable to conceive or sustain a pregnancy, and yet, Caleb made his way into the world healthy and whole. He was ordained by God to be here. The baby we lost changed our heart to be open to more children, but her life was not the one we were to enjoy on earth; it was Caleb. I hope this truth encourages you.

Kari said...

That is so hard. This happened to one of my friends multiple times before she had a healthy pregnancy that resulted in a beautiful little girl. I know it happens, but you always hope it won't ever happen to anyone that you know and care about. I'm glad your coworker is dealing with her loss in a peaceful and healthy way, and hope that you are caring for yourself and not worrying. Thinking peaceful, comforting thoughts for you.

Teresa @ Grammy Girlfriend said...

Your story really touched me....Just blog hopping this morning and ran across your blog...

I look forward to coming back to read more. Have a Happy Saturday!